Sooooo havn't been blogging alot. I cant seem to be able to get the inspiration to write anything meaningful. I want this blog to be meaningful and not about my day, my day sucks by the way, even if nobody would need to know about somebody else's day ( you can find that on so many other peoples blogs). Now that i don't have anything to rant, blog, post about i'm just gonna say how world events have affected me. The massacre in Norway was a shock, i'm christian but i wonder about my religion ( i might be agnostic), but what made me pretty angry is the fact that the man behind the massacres said that the killing of 93 innocent people would help the country of Europe and christianity. Its just so bad how so many innocent were killed. now all i can do is put sad faces. :( ;(

Amy Winehouse also died the other day and i seriously felt sorry for her, but more importantly i strongly dislike (hate is too harsh) all two faced people. Before she died she was known for her drug use and voice. So many people wanted her dead because they thought she was a bad role model and citizen but the day after her death everybody mourned for her. they only care when you die. (don"t commit suicide)

That makes me think of another thing, Suicide, in no way am i joking but i have had alot of suicidal thoughts. Sometimes i become depressed in result of the actions and consequences of things around me, i actually imagine what would happen if i died. I'm not gonna kill myself DW. But everytime i have suicidal thoughts my mind starts to hurt, i think if i did die what would happen to me after? would i go into heaven? would i just stay in the ground? rot in hell? Maybe become reincarnated? and nothing! I have a christian friend that told me  that i only have one life to live. He told me that if he were to die, he would rather die a christian then an atheist because he would rather die being told that he was wrong and not go to heaven because he wasn't a christian. I'm surprised that i can write about this because it just entangles with everything in my head.

He also pointed out to me that youth i.e teenagers, don't take death seriously. We think that we are invincible and to me it is only when we are in a near death experience then we will no how much our lives cost and how we can only spend it one way.
End, cross out what i said before about me not being able to blog