i bought a bear today. nothing much to talk about i just feel strangely happy today

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well i guess this is becoming a habit of mine, i guess i'm sorry that i have not been blogging much though i do not feel the need to apologize. Nothing much has changed, basically i just don't feel like blogging. I always thought that blogging would be swift and easy, maybe it is for others but i seem to be having trouble. Truthfully i am only blogging right now because my mum told me off for playing games and not doing anything productive. 

here's a list of things that i did in quick succession-

-eat

-sleep

-went to school camp

-played games

-school routine 

fullstop. Tell me if you want to read about what happens everyday because i feel that nobody would want to read about my dull daily life. 

tell me if i should put more pictures.

I was wondering, when you guys read my blog do u find it depressing? because i don't want to send out the wrong vibe about me being depressed. I'm not on top of the world but i'm also not on the brink of killing myself, and i would like to think that other people have the same confusion of where we stand in the world/universe. I can put it out there that i am not the best at PD/H/PE but the thing that always stayed on my mind was the question "where do i stand in my life?". You may say that you are on the top, average or bottom, but sometimes when you look at things in more depth it kind of gets complicated. When i ask myself this question just think, oh dam, do i even have a place in the world- is there anybody out there that is dependent on me? well i'm getting sidetracked but ultimately my answer to that question would be- i don't know. well this was a pointless post but if you want to discuss anything (ANYTHING) at all just leave a comment or email me.